reflections
kyowa, kimi hana wa watashino te nai.
Day before farewell assembly.
Accompanied with the end of my life as a student, the last few times we put on the blue factory outfit at 6am every morning, was also the end of the redrose's saga. As to whether to feel relieved, or reluctant and empty, i would say wakarimasen. Having not seen eye to eye the obvious brownish rebonded hair and the subtly cute walking style for a relatively long time, i felt not the usual cold, vile and cunning aura emitting from the source but rather, a neutral yet pleasant feeling. An illusion, possibly where imagination clouds my judgement and i eliminate the possibility of saying hi. She hates me, undoubtedly, and the stance doesn't deviate much on my side of the fence, yet i can't help but feel remorse, although no sin has been committed on my part, at least not that i know of. Why pon on tuesday? The only time where you could see clearly, with your own vision, the result of your words. 77 ranking points is not something that can be achieved with pure ability, of which i lack, thank you? Its a wonder why compulsion chooses me, without knowing her in person, and with all the undesirable encounters, i have no reason to take interest in such affairs. Yet amongst other more attractive packages, hesitation takes over. Its time to be honest, for i guess by now, theres not much to lose considering my bottom position on ur list. Hopefully for you as well, my two years here would probably have been much more pleasant if we could have at least been friends, acquantances. Im sorry, for everything. My hands hold no red roses.
Today was similar to christmas, except no long relaxing holiday awaits. Teachers showed us with gifts and words of farewell and luck, some lame some sincere and some practical. As i hastily walked the diagonal of AJ square, i recalled what my senior said when he graduated, he missed the life of j2. Well any sane second year student would agree that hes crazy, but he did mention that it wasn't the work that he missed. Well not that im gna miss it, i can't wait to get outta here. CCA's in a mess, but my hands are off, i have no obligation to step in. Probably for the last time today, i touched the school piano, but having only realised it now, im regretting not bidding it goodbye, for it killed my time after school, taught me new pieces, and helped me make new friends. It is truely a beautiful item in the school, if not the most beautiful.
Went to amk S11 to eat after school, $3.80 1 meat 3 vege damm ex. Saw a less than masculine figure stalling us, or rather 2 of our friends whom seem to attract members of the same gender. GAY. Not there aren't any in the class. I wonder why my classmate has the constant urge to touch guys, even though hes attached. Probably he will have withdrawal syntoms in the holidays LOL. 3 hour lecture physics damm boring, waited till the end for the explanation of 1 question which i still don't understand. Oh well. Oh the hottest girl in school commented on 2 guys in my class and they're making such a fuss about it, of course im interested to gossip too. Guess thats a consequence of staying in the Bachelor's club.
Paiseh, my post today will be a short one, nothing to comment on.
Lame comment of the day: Member of the Aj gossip club.
Your postly dosage of anime wallpapers.=)
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