konbaha.

In my attempts to overcome the trivalities of the heart, futile tries propell an uncertain tendency to let lose.

today, was pleasant and enjoyable. Inspite of the GP test and long hours, i found myself in caught in a pleasant environment. One thing stroke me, during one of our breaks, a class was celebrating a birthday. It seems strange yet usual for girls to be absolutely thrilled at birthdays where they receive presents, sometimes demand for them. Yet they accuse the boys for having no feelings when they do not wish someone happy birthday. But when u carefully observe these actions of them, ive noticed over these 2 years that they are extremly selective, where intentional or not, in their birthday selections. Not everyone gets to celebrate their birthday or get equal attention from "these class birthday ICs", only their friends are remembered, yet they go around promoting what seems to be "class/cca sprit", if class or cca sprit was measured in terms of time spent together and fun spent together, then what happens to the sprit when a crisis occurs?

Often, my cca likes to call themselves spas, well its an abbravation for siao which they spas together to promote bonding, calling it bonding session, well as an accomodative person, i play along too, but my heart feels otherwise. When the cca goes through turmoil, the "bonded" cca distrusts each other, refuses to believe and accept others opinions. Certain unfairness and biasedness(hopefully, they are unaware) start to sprout within the leaders. Ive noticed the female leaders in my cca are more concerned about their friends and their personal desires rather than Team and CCA efforts as they often claim. The decisions and actions taken often seem to lean towards their benefit rather than the benefit of the cca as they claim. Perhaps im wrong but im not the only one who feels so. However, not want to destroy any already fragile friendship i have with these unconcious hypocrites, i choose to join the others in slience. Not that ive not made any real friends in my cca, i have, but not more than 3. A cca or rather, a group of people who deems themselves to be truely bonded, must ask themselves if such mutual trust and support would still persist during times of crisis, its often easy to say yes, we already go through turmoil together but probably a simpler test could be, if a teammate calls u in the middle of the night at 2am and says he or she wants to talk, what would you do?Or in a case whereby ur teammates ask for ur help at the expense of some sacrifices u have to make. I can safely say that my teammates in my cca are not bonded, for if the time comes to make sacrifices, not many will, not even me, unless its for the 3 or so. After all, which team isn't "bonded" during good times?

To those birthday fanatics, you might feel that celebrating a friend's birthday might be an expression of wish of happiness and telling everyone its your birthday. But isn't birthday jus another day. Does it mean that u only wish your friend happiness once a year?and that u give presents for a reason and not purely out of friendship? At the end of the day, when the birthday its over, i feel that the person would be sad and lonely to know that they following day, no one will wish him or her happiness any longer, at least until 365 days later. Call me crazy but this is how ive been brought up. My family doesn't make a big deal outta birthdays, ive not received a present from my parents the last few years. Probably a "ur 1 year bigger liao" is good enough. Mothers day/Father day are no different. Everyday should be mothers day or fathers day, not jus once a year that u treat them extremely well.

Have you ever wondered how these festivals, teachers day, children day, daddy day , mommy day came about?Don't tell me its a 2000 year old trandition that has been passed down from generation to the next. in fact, these events only happen in the last 100 years. started by profit-motivated businessmen whom are probably in the florist industry and earn big bucks when they can convince people to buy flowers on valentines day. Yet many of us are foolish enough to follow. I do not doubt the fun and enjoyment during these times, and yes i do give gifts to people too(selectively). But my point here is, treat the people u care for and love equally well through the year and all the time and not just once a year.

You know, its during the time of the night approximately past 11 when my emotions run wild, like kinda emo-ing stage arrives. i start to get weird thoughts and feelings.haha. so weird. KK im going to continue emoing.

oyasuminasai

Work count : Econs--> case study ( in 2.5 hours=.=)

Lame comment of the day: Im sick and tired.....of being sick and tired.

Thats wan ching and i, in front of our newly painted CCA banner, rate please=) oh and thats her name i typed into GC using knowledge of curve sketching and mathematical formulas, Took alot of effort haha.

konbaha.

In my attempts to overcome the trivalities of the heart, futile tries propell an uncertain tendency to let lose.

today, was pleasant and enjoyable. Inspite of the GP test and long hours, i found myself in caught in a pleasant environment. One thing stroke me, during one of our breaks, a class was celebrating a birthday. It seems strange yet usual for girls to be absolutely thrilled at birthdays where they receive presents, sometimes demand for them. Yet they accuse the boys for having no feelings when they do not wish someone happy birthday. But when u carefully observe these actions of them, ive noticed over these 2 years that they are extremly selective, where intentional or not, in their birthday selections. Not everyone gets to celebrate their birthday or get equal attention from "these class birthday ICs", only their friends are remembered, yet they go around promoting what seems to be "class/cca sprit", if class or cca sprit was measured in terms of time spent together and fun spent together, then what happens to the sprit when a crisis occurs?

Often, my cca likes to call themselves spas, well its an abbravation for siao which they spas together to promote bonding, calling it bonding session, well as an accomodative person, i play along too, but my heart feels otherwise. When the cca goes through turmoil, the "bonded" cca distrusts each other, refuses to believe and accept others opinions. Certain unfairness and biasedness(hopefully, they are unaware) start to sprout within the leaders. Ive noticed the female leaders in my cca are more concerned about their friends and their personal desires rather than Team and CCA efforts as they often claim. The decisions and actions taken often seem to lean towards their benefit rather than the benefit of the cca as they claim. Perhaps im wrong but im not the only one who feels so. However, not want to destroy any already fragile friendship i have with these unconcious hypocrites, i choose to join the others in slience. Not that ive not made any real friends in my cca, i have, but not more than 3. A cca or rather, a group of people who deems themselves to be truely bonded, must ask themselves if such mutual trust and support would still persist during times of crisis, its often easy to say yes, we already go through turmoil together but probably a simpler test could be, if a teammate calls u in the middle of the night at 2am and says he or she wants to talk, what would you do?Or in a case whereby ur teammates ask for ur help at the expense of some sacrifices u have to make. I can safely say that my teammates in my cca are not bonded, for if the time comes to make sacrifices, not many will, not even me, unless its for the 3 or so. After all, which team isn't "bonded" during good times?

To those birthday fanatics, you might feel that celebrating a friend's birthday might be an expression of wish of happiness and telling everyone its your birthday. But isn't birthday jus another day. Does it mean that u only wish your friend happiness once a year?and that u give presents for a reason and not purely out of friendship? At the end of the day, when the birthday its over, i feel that the person would be sad and lonely to know that they following day, no one will wish him or her happiness any longer, at least until 365 days later. Call me crazy but this is how ive been brought up. My family doesn't make a big deal outta birthdays, ive not received a present from my parents the last few years. Probably a "ur 1 year bigger liao" is good enough. Mothers day/Father day are no different. Everyday should be mothers day or fathers day, not jus once a year that u treat them extremely well.

Have you ever wondered how these festivals, teachers day, children day, daddy day , mommy day came about?Don't tell me its a 2000 year old trandition that has been passed down from generation to the next. in fact, these events only happen in the last 100 years. started by profit-motivated businessmen whom are probably in the florist industry and earn big bucks when they can convince people to buy flowers on valentines day. Yet many of us are foolish enough to follow. I do not doubt the fun and enjoyment during these times, and yes i do give gifts to people too(selectively). But my point here is, treat the people u care for and love equally well through the year and all the time and not just once a year.

You know, its during the time of the night approximately past 11 when my emotions run wild, like kinda emo-ing stage arrives. i start to get weird thoughts and feelings.haha. so weird. KK im going to continue emoing.

oyasuminasai

Work count : Econs--> case study ( in 2.5 hours=.=)

Lame comment of the day: Im sick and tired.....of being sick and tired.

Thats wan ching and i, in front of our newly painted CCA banner, rate please=) oh and thats her name i typed into GC using knowledge of curve sketching and mathematical formulas, Took alot of effort haha.