Monday, August 11, 2008
Jamadah
Its hot and sunny
and im unhappy
probably for my acne
unlike my mummy
Im unhappy,
for being sick and tired..or for just being me
i look in the mirror in front of my knee
red spots of irritating scars fill eee
for 4 years ive fought this war, and when i thought i was about to win, it came back, fluctuations are their hobby, for they take pride in my sorrowful body. Perhaps the source is the heart, perhaps the reason is the mind, but this problem is after all still mind. To cure the heart, isn't within my means, to cure the mind, probably not too long ahead.
Im unhappy
A stone in my head, pumping like a balloon, migrant is such a baboon.
Sought help in Maplestory, but vista turned against me. Sought help in food, restrictions turned against me. Its time to start work, but the 2kg physics prelim package drove me nuts, those hwa chong assholes. Im stressed and depressed, angry and sad.
Im unhappy
C'mon push yourself i told myself, but gave in to the urge to give up. at least for today, i will pamper myself, at least...for today...i need a break. 3 days wasn't enough. alittle less than 80 to spare. watching my dog with envious eyes, i wished for these problems to go away, or at least be able to share it with someone. But at this time, theres no one. this is reality, sucidals are such courageous people. but no, i have somethins to do first.
Im unhappy
behind schdule, behind grades, behind peers, behind my face, behind myself.
i wonder if im the only one feeling like this, maybe its atonement for my unknown sins.
backache,headache,cheekache, heartache
Im unhappy
id love some chocolates, a chocolate a day keeps the sadness away. sadly, brings the acne today.
id love a cup of cool strawberry milk, sadly it brings the acne together with it.
i'd love a 3 month break, sadly its As immediately after
i'd love to speak to you, sadly its a one way conversation
Im unhappy
I want to be happy, but that won't come
Even if im happy, the problems are still there
even if the problems are not there, new problems would come
maybe, i should i just be happy
Thats probably one of hardest things to do in life, just be happy.
Work count :half a hwachong paper, and suppose to do a maths paper
Unhappy comment of the day: When was the last time u were truly happy.
~datahush vi britannia commands..
3:57 PM